Things are getting hard.

Today should have been such a happy day, but it wasn't. I got my visas today. Super exciting, right?

I had a talk with some of my friends. There are 5 of us, and they are the sisters that God blessed me with. They may not be biological sisters, or legal sisters, but they are my sisters at heart. 3 of us were talking tonight, and I'm having a hard time. I want to leave so bad, but things aren't quite right. I can't put my finger on it, but things have changed in the past month. I don't want to leave things like this, and I'm terrified that I'm going to. But I must. There is no turning back now, and we will just have to deal with this as it comes.

We have already beaten the odds. This time last year, everyone told us that there was no way we'd stay friends out of high school. We were all going our separate directions, and we would drift apart. But we are still there for eachother. And I'm going to need you guys if I'm going to be strong enough to do this.

This is what I am supposed to do. I need to do this. But I also need you guys there for me, and I'm going to be greedy. I NEED you guys. If I don't have your support, I know I will give up, and, even though I'm sure some of you would be happy to have me home, I don't want to come home because I'm not strong enough to stay. I want to come home because it is my time to come back.

I love you guys. And I know I say this a lot, but I can't stress it enough. Screw the time difference. Call me any time. I would rather loose sleep and talk to you, than sleep and loose you. You mean the world to me.